Exercise.

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2 min readNov 18, 2020

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I was feeling really good yesterday. Better than I have been in recent weeks. I thought it would be alright to exercise. I really need to exercise because my metabolism is super slow and I have not been exercising for like two months now. This has led me to gain 30 pounds — the same 30 pounds that I had lost in the first year that we had moved here to Seattle.

This is hard for me mentally, to have gained this weight back. My weight is something I have struggled with all of my adult life. I am constantly on the brink of being more than 200 pounds, and I hate it. It makes me hate my appearance and feel super uncomfortable in my body.

I tried to exercise yesterday. I did a Zumba routine for an hour. It was an intro course so it was not very intense. It was a good workout. I actually didn’t feel too bad while I was doing it. My heart rate went up to 130+ while I was doing it, but it didn’t make me feel bad.

After the workout was a whole different story. My heart rate stayed up around 100 bpm for nearly 3 hours after the workout. This is really not normal and did not feel good. I took my medication after my workout, so maybe if I take it before I workout it will be better. I don’t know. My next appointment with the cardiologist is next week, so I will be mentioning this to my doctor. It makes me really nervous that I might not be able to work out. I also worry about being overweight and how that impacts my health.

Spending weeks on end not knowing what’s wrong with me is really taking its toll on my mental health. It’s been almost a month since I got the heart monitor. I know this because I refilled my new medication today.

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