Awake. It took me so long to get to sleep. I definitely have anxiety now, if I didn’t before. Every time I do normal things like stand up, sit down, my heart races.

I don’t know what I will do if I can’t get this under control. I have spent…

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This heart problem is getting worse. I now feel awful 24/7. I went to the ER 3 times in total. I am super scared about what I am going through. I keep reminding myself that all my bloodwork was fine, but my heart flutters and beats fast all the time now. It’s pretty much constant. I’m up right now because I am having an episode and can’t sleep. I am so miserable, and there’s no end in sight. I started taking beta blockers, to keep the rate controlled so it doesn’t go up like it was doing, up to 120+ bpm.

I am terrified that this will not get better. This is the most afraid I have ever been in my life.

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Today I had two episodes of random Tachycardia. This is where my heart rate would suddenly go up and beat at a very high rate. It was beating at like 130 bpm or like 115 bpm… it was basically all over the place. I had an episode in the middle…

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